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Sunday, June 12, 2005

I was a good girl today.
To meet my interviewee, I brisk-walked from Kiliney Road to Orchard Mrt to save money. =)
And even though I had absolutely no need to, I travelled back to Cineleisure to help my bro look for Splinter Cell - Chaos Theory.... and then when I found out it was out of stock there I walked over to Heeren and finally helped him bag it.
Then I walked to Scotts Picnic to buy 2 bagloads of Roti Boy for my family and grandma et al.


Savoury buttery bread topped with addiction-inducing caffeinated coffee powder. Ingenious. Posted by Hello
Then I walked to Scotts Picnic to buy 2 bagloads of Roti Boy for my family and grandma et al. This was despite the fact that my interviewee stood me up and made me wait for a fool for 45 minutes and did not answer my 6 calls and 2 sms... and despite the fact that my bro was nowhere near sympathetic when I called him for some comfort ;p Yay.

("A new commandment I give to you...: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another" [Jesus said] John 13:34-35)


Rotiboy trivia: 2 rotiboys + lots of water + a mug of cooling tea = coffee-smelling pee Posted by Hello

Friday, June 10, 2005

a bit of loving

I've been having quite a rough time relationship-wise. It's so hard to keep up with what friends expect of me, and I found myself giving everyone just the bare minimum, saying nice things here and there so they won't suspect anything's amiss.
If I'm referring to you, I'm really sorry I haven't been a good friend.
I try to avoid of friends calling at night because I want time to myself, because beauty sleep is important, because I need time to pack my room, because....
Some of these are good reasons, but... I can be so selfish that I close my mind to spending extra time with my friends, not thinking about whether they really need a listening ear.

So much for being a friend. I just care about myself. Well, sometimes I do care about them.
But only in the little pocket of time (eg. 15 mins/2 days) that I allocate to each.

I'm not trying to be a bad friend, but I guess this is really innate selfishness.
I'm like this to my family too. I talk to my mom in whatever tone I wish just because I'm right... It never occured to me that I should give her the proper respect deserved by a mom, even if she were wrong. I think when God set the commandment to "Honour your parents", that was the mininum. If I could love them more, honouring them would only be the least I could do.

Maybe this shows how imperfect human love is. No matter how much we say we love, we still let each other down now or some time in the future. A good friend told me there is nothing in the world we can wholly rely on - not our accomplishments, not our friends, not even our family, but only God's consistent love.

So now I'm really gotta to see my love for others not as a "minimun returns" exchange, but in the way God would want me to show love for them. People are not detached bit players in Michelle's Game of Life but God's cherished creation - so loved that He died on the cross for them. So I am no one to be selfish and mean towards them...

Sunday, June 05, 2005

an innocent little question

LAST Friday at work, i asked my fellow intern, Medha, a devout Buddhist, about her views on premarital sex.
To cut her answer short, she was against it but told me her reasons had nothing much to do with religion. I told her I was against it too, but on religious grounds.
Anyway, in the middle of our lively conversation, my never-mince-my-words, never-politically-correct editor joined in. He started off laughing and teasing and as usual looking at us like we were little girls.
Then suddenly he changed his tone and adopted a serious fatherly voice, and told us he wanted to give us some 'objective advice'.
According to our dear Mr M. Singh, his vast knowledge and wide social circle taught him that many couples who breezed through romance and dating eventually end up in tears and divorce after marriage because....
they were "sexually incompatible".
At this point Medha shot out: "So you're saying we ought to test-drive our partners?"
"Well, you all know I'm an agnostic, and I know you're religious so I'm not asking you to do as I say," he answered, "but I'm telling you this thing about compatibility will be a serious issue."
At this point I couldn't take it any more so I asked,
"Don't people 'improve' their performance over time?"
"Who's born an expert in bed?"
Then the both of them gave a very small but noticeable pause ... and decided to ignore that.
I can't remember how exactly the rest of it went but our dear boss did make his point that sex was a very important... element in marraige. And yes he thinks test-driving would eliminate a lot of tears.
But tat's not the point here anyway - you already know my stand. But I do have a little question:
HOW incompatible can two lovers be in bed?
Seriously! I mean, if you've got the complementary organs - and they are functional - what can go so bad that it triggers the divorce alarms??
And if both parties love each other, they'd be comfortable with expressing love in physical ways - holding each other, hugging, kissing (we even do that to frens lor).... so surely you won't find your husband or wife revolting to touch in bed right?
Hm.... I don't have the experience of my editor so I can only speculate... but I still don't see any problem what.
If you're inexperienced, you can learn.... ... and if both are inexperienced, learn together la! sounds quite sweet, somehow.
Furthermore... if it's the first time for both, then you won't even know if your partner sucks! Sounds nice. And works both ways in case you need it too ;)
So... yar that's what I think.
Got a view?
;p

Friday, June 03, 2005


during our rafting break, these kids from the countryside greeted us good morning - or so we thought. It was only after I posed with them that I realised they were saying "money, money" repeatedly.... ugh. Posted by Hello


Bali is really beautiful Posted by Hello


john going crazy with the guitar... (which he brought to serenade me! hahahahaar) Posted by Hello


John's dad and mom sent us off b4 bali! ;> Posted by Hello


Whitewater rafting @ Bali!! From left: our guide, me, John (the BF! haha n yah he looks v toot here heheh), our frens Gerald n Mel. Posted by Hello